February 20, 2013

So I’ve come to peace that all I want to do is WRITE.

I’m in heaven writing my book.  I will do it for hours and hours and hours.  Absolute love.

So rather than fighting for a balanced life, I just dove in.

Monday night, after one of my meetings, I said… all I want to do is write.  I’m going to stop putting pressure on myself to do other things in the day.  If I want to write, I write.  That’s it.

And then I said, I’m going to start going to sleep earlier as well – I want to wake up early and write all day.  And that’s what I’ve been doing for two days now, up at 5 or 6AM and writing by 7AM.

I love it.  And I’ll go til 7PM in night.

Of course I take breaks during the day — but sometimes, not really.  Heheh 🙂

Today I’m tired, so I’m taking a rest, a me day, a more chill day.  No writing… although I’m writing on here as you see 🙂  But I wanted to update you.  I wanted to write this yesterday since so much happened yesterday, but it was already late and I needed to eat dinner.

So with my book, I feel I have an internal deadline.  I don’t know when it is, but it feels like I need to get this done soon.  Now.

I don’t think it’s so much about the writing of the book that matters right now, although I’m thoroughly enjoying it… I feel like my place in the world right now is to be out there TEACHING the material.  Helping people heal.  I feel that’s needed, big time.

I attracted wonderful things yesterday — a potential therapy job, and a potential new student.

Wonderful – I am so in the flow.

But like I said in the last post, I am working on specific things.  Going for the big time, what I really want.

Yes, I am focusing on more students.  So that’s awesome – very awesome and I am so grateful, to have just met a new student while walking Magic.

But I am working on other things — things that really jazz me — TV and writing for magazine/paper. That’s what I want.

Yes, and this book out there.