June 28, 2013
I realized the other day that my anxiety comes in during the resting days because my mind goes to money worries.
I kept on thinking about it yesterday….. what if my show already sold and I was just hanging around today?
What if I had $100,000 in my bank account or more and I was hanging around, would I still feel uneasy, like something was wrong, that I should be doing something else, anxiety?
And the answer would be no.
Of course I would get bored — and that’s fair enough, but I realize, that the boredom was only an issue, because I felt I should be doing something else to be bringing in money.
It’s like on weekends, it feels okay to rest – because everyone else is relaxing, but on the weekdays I “should” be working.
And even more should be working because money is what it is in my bank account.
So I thank my guides for keeping on reminding me of this — giving me a new perspective on this situation.
And also the realization that this is probably how I am going to be living my life.
Working on a project…
Then resting from a project…
And that I should get used to coming up with ideas for things I want to do with my life.
And get used to relaxing on days when other people… regular society is working.