January 14, 2013

The second part here that I wanted to share about this supportive community thing is this…

When I was doing the MarryBlaire.com website I had a supportive community.  They were rooting me on and people were coming back to read all the time.  Lots of emails, press support, etc.  Supportive community.

Back then I was in the place of “oh my g-d, what’s happening to me” and being like a friend but teacher guiding people through the experience.  I was figuring it out as I went.

But since then I have gone through healing – that’s when my first healer stepped in, after that relationship I got in towards the end of that website, and I stepped into my wisdom and more power.  There was more of a knowing of who I was.

And then my work changed.

It got deeper.  I was now starting to help people to heal as well, in a deeper way than how I was healing them through that website (as it was healing for them to read the story and to transform as I did)

And I stepped more into my expert role.  Teacher role.  Leader role.

I’m not saying this is bad, cause it’s the natural progression of things but something changed I feel with how people were reacting to me.

It didn’t happen immediately and all the time, cause again I was mainly doing my Event Planning company and hiding from my gifts….

But nowadays I notice how I tend to rub many people … I want to say in the wrong way, but I don’t think that’s it.  I see how I stir something in them that needs to be healed… and if someone doesn’t want to look at it or is not ready, they are going to maybe be repelled by my energy.

I wrote a blog post about this several months ago, about how when you are light and in a different mindset than others that that light can repel the darkness and people get offended or totally turned off / strange reactions to your light.

Again, maybe this sounds like ego, but this was shared through me from Spirit as well as one of my teachers was sharing this with me one time.

So this makes me think again, back to a previous recent post, that I have been drawing in some “wrong” people, people who may be turned off or repelled from my energy, who are really just not ready to face these dark parts of themselves.

Again, so much analyzing.  Who cares already.  I shared it so there, but I feel like that’s in the past.  I don’t want to talk about it anymore.  The end.