June 5, 2013

Okay, so I have the idea for my tv show.  My TV Reality Show.  It became clear today while I was walking — and so did my insecurities around it.  More on this with the next post.

For this one I want to talk about something I’ve been thinking about lately, re-adjusting my thinking.

You see, I was brought up with money.  My parents had money.

But their way of spending money was always shunned…. by me.

I don’t know why.  I was just always anti-establishment.  I smile, cause I see how I still am (4:44 right now) 🙂

That’s what I teach.  That’s the gift here… amongst many.  I teach people how to break away from old paradigms.  From the general society’s way of viewing things.  Of doing life.  I help them look at things — life differently.

This is exactly what I teach with dating…. “oh no, you don’t have to do online dating… you don’t have to go out there searching for it…. attract it to you.  I’ll show you how”

So this was my path all along.

Well along with this mix was a defiance from how I was brought up.  How my parents spent their money.  Now, I see this now and it’s no big deal.  It’s their money, their life, of course they can spend it how they want.

But as a child, I didn’t like what they imposed on me.

Broadways shows.  Yuck.

Fancy meals at fancy restaurants.  Nope.

Trips to the country club.  Having to dress a certain way to attend.  Hell no.

I hated it all.

What a snobby little kid, right?  But there’s no judgment either with what I did… again, there’s a blessing in all of it for everyone.  Come on now.

So these days as I have been working on my abundant mindset, attracting more money into my life.  Not using my parents as a money crutch… or my ex as a money crutch (man, oh man, how many people lean on their husbands for financial support?!)  So I broke out of all of this.

THANK YOU!  Wow, what a journey this has been.

So anyway, as I now step into this luxury mindset, as I will call it…. since I am moving out of the abundant mindset… I think I get these concepts and I’ve been applying them as best as I can… I have been entering into luxury mindset — picking out the luxury items I desire, things I will spend my abundant money on.

And I have been making a list.

Because they are not items that my parents would ever spend their money on — it’s me redefining money success.

Because if I go back into my old thinking…. “you have money… this is what you spend it on… this is the type of person / attitude / way you present yourself / way you dress”  – if I go back into those old thoughts, I don’t want it.

I don’t like it.  It’s not for me.

But if I go into MY MONEY DEFINITION.  You know, the “I’m rich” thoughts — as being true for me… well, I want to spend it on adventures.  Learning adventures.  Experiences.

Like crystal digging trips.

Swimming with the dolphins.

Working at a zoo for a month.

Working on a farm for a month.

Doing a Tuina Massage course for 2 weeks in China.

Have a private chef — two, that alternate every two weeks, with different styles of food they cook so I don’t get bored of the meals 🙂  (haha)

(You can dream as big or as crazy as you want…)

These are things my parents wouldn’t want to do.  Well, maybe the dolphins thing… but I couldn’t see them flying to Hawaii just to do that… and that’s what I plan on doing.

So this isn’t a “I’m better than them” kind of thing — it’s just a realization that when you have money you can dress anyway you’d like (this has taken me a long time to come to peace with because my mom used to always bug me / disapprove of what I wore…. “you dress like a slob” — and I can have any type of experiences I want.

So just for the record, this is what I keep reminding myself of — and making a list of things I desire to remind myself when I come into huge money. 🙂 NICE!  I’m ready!