January 21, 2013

I am no longer posting my private thoughts in this Facebook group I’m kind of apart of.  It’s not like I post in there a lot but this is what I realized today.. At times I will post a comment or a question.

But I never need an answer to that question because as soon as I post it I start having answers for it.

Other people in the group reply which I never really like what they say to me.

I’m sure that energy must come out in my response to them (sometimes) as many times I’ve just stopped replying.

They annoy me in that group.

I don’t even know them, they are strangers.

But many of them know one another cause they go to these live events where this lady teaches them.

But I don’t learn from this lady like they do, instead I learn from her by watching what she offers and how she holds herself.  It has nothing to do with what she’s actually teaching that draws me.

In any event, I find the group cliche.  I don’t feel the people in there like me either.

I have posted many of my videos in there and they usually just ignore them.

Who knows if they watch them.  I guess I just assume they ignore them.

I don’t know what their beef with me is.

I think it’s a thing that I feel from most people these days.

My bias towards most people.  My feeling is that most people are not in their power.  I view them as not knowing themselves and weak.  Yes, I know that sounds bad and yes I know you can judge me for that.  So be it.  I’m exploring and I’m sharing with you where I’m at right now…

I feel that many people in this group just follow this lady.  They bow to her.

It’s one of those things that I guess I want… a following.. yet it annoys me that these people worship this lady and believe and do everything she says.

I know it cause I see them posting on the message board there.

So anyway, I’m not posting my private thoughts in there anymore.

My private thoughts are private.

I don’t know these people.  I don’t feel they are supportive to me.  I feel they are cliche and I feel I’m different from them.

Okay, repeating patterns here again?

It’s the whole virtual thing that always seems to annoy me…

You never know who you are talking to and whenever I have met someone in real life that I’ve known virtually, well, I don’t like them.  Nothing personal, they are  just not my type of person in real life. I’m usually not attracted to their energy or whatever…

So while at times I would still post in there to voice my view and use as a sounding board or whatever… again, it was really silly cause the answer would always come when I would explore it, I didn’t need or want their advice, which would then annoy me.

I realized today when I went to post I was doing the same thing…

and that there’s no reason to do that anymore.

I have this forum.  I share with my people.  My inner circle, etc.

I also find that I feel there are some people on there as well that they keep quiet and just observe — and then they judge whether they have more power than you or not by what you post and by where they see YOUR awareness is at.

Well, okay… I guess I do that too.

But if I’m posting my private state and they are not then it’s unequal and that annoys me.

In any event, I’m moving on…

Got this number today while walking…

777 — The angels applaud you… “congratulations, you’re on a roll! Keep up the good work and know your wish is coming true.” This is an extremely positive sign and you should also expect more miracles to occur.

Also I want to note that yesterday and the day before I saw 1 dead bird and 1 dead geese and then today 1 dead geiko.  Not sure what all this dead stuff means, but know it means something.  Goodbye to the past.