January 7, 2013

I went to the beach for a meditative walk to connect to myself and to Spirit.

I was thinking about how I was surprised at my response to the situation yesterday.

How upset I was feeling.  How hurt.  How disappointed and how confused.

That was the first time, in a very long time or really ever – I can’t remember an incident – where I was so hard on myself or so sad feeling…

It’s like you do all these things about self acceptance and self love and then a situation like this happens, where I’m put in a situation where it is new to me and I’m possibly caught off guard and not really knowing how to act, etc… and I was so hard on myself.  Or disappointed in myself.  It was a bit strange.  A new side to me or a side that I haven’t seen in a really long time – that pressure and that sadness.

I’m taking today to rest.  I woke up early and didn’t sleep well due to going out (even though I didn’t stay out late) and then getting upset about things that happened.

It’s really a non-issue, but I guess my intense sensitivity showed there.

And an incident reminds me here how I have to protect my gift this year.  Or at least during this time.

Spirit shared with me the irony here, which I find a bit comical… well, kind of.. more interesting than anything else… and that at this time that many people are awakening to their spiritual side, as I am going deeper into my psychic and healing gifts, Spirit is bringing me back into the mainstream.

Mainstream society.

Many people will be leaving that mainstream way of living… here I am being brought back into it.

Interesting.  I wonder where and how Spirit wants me to serve… Hmm…

I wonder what’s next.

This makes me think that this is what all the 888s have been meaning.  This showed up several times yesterday for me as well.

888 — A phase of your life is about to end, and this is a sign to give you forewarning to prepare. This number sequence may mean you are winding up an emotional career or relationship phase. It also means there is light at the end of the tunnel. In addition it means, The crops are ripe. Don’t wait to pick and enjoy them. In other words, don’t procrastinate in making your move or enjoying the fruits of your labor.

I feel honored and welcoming of these changes.

It feels big.  It feels exciting.

So many spiritual teachers and spiritual people in general leave the mainstream way of living…. here, Spirit is like, this is where you are going to serve.  This is where you are most needed these days.

And I accept.

Also – I just want to add as a PS to this note, and that’s something I’ve been thinking about lately.  I’ve been getting little whispers saying, “you see how you are sharing spirituality with people who you used to keep it hidden from?”

Over the last 2-4 weeks I have been sharing spiritual thoughts and environmental concerns (chemtrails, clearing toxins from your body, GMOs, and other things in your food) with my parents frequently.  I’ve also been sharing it with family friends.  These are people who I would never have these discussions with before.  Never.  I never thought they would understand or be open to it, but something “out of the blue” changed with me, I have been urged to share.  Share it all.  Like different lessons come to mind to share with them each time I see them.  I am now a teacher out in the world to people who I never thought I would be teaching… well, at least not like this.

So this actually makes sense, all the pieces are coming together.  Wonder what’s next to be revealed.