May 25, 2013

So I’ve been doing this thing…

Posting some of my processing on Facebook and then cringing, wanting to delete it — sometimes doing just that.

It’s the fine line between sharing and sharing too much.

On the one hand, I want to share.  I see no big deal about sharing.

But then on the other hand, I’m dealing with feelings that are very vulnerable, insecure, money issues, me issues.


And for me to put that online when potential students are looking at me and potential people to work with / as in TV and other execs, well then I don’t think it’s a good idea.

I had a minor freakout of things about speaking in front of people the other day.

On one hand it felt good to go to my community for “comforting” and to just release.

I got support.

But then on the other hand, I was thinking that it wasn’t professional – and if someone going to that talk.. to know all of my process beforehand that would be awkward.  Maybe.  Yes.

And then yesterday I posted some of my stuff for sale.

And then posted that I was feeling cheap, clearing money issues having to do with rich / poor people whether to donate or sell.

Awkward, yet again.

Not good.

I need to NOT go to Facebook for comfort or creative outlet like that.  It’s not for catharsis.  Or maybe I just post it in one of my groups there.  Not other places.


I don’t know what to do.

Again, just noticing what’s going on….

Caught between two worlds I guess.


Whether to share now while in process, or reveal these posts later when I’m done with the transformation and let people learn from my experience — taking them in depth to it.  Yea.

After all that’s what I wanted to do anyway….

Share the details.

Okay, so maybe do it afterward, not while you are going through it.


Gotta think about it.