January 28, 2013

For about a week now… same time frame since I started writing this book, I have been seeing my neighbors in their underwear.

It’s kind of funny how it keeps popping up.  Tight whiteys, boxers and now more…

Yesterday when I was walking Magic at night I saw one of my neighbors in his boxers, just walking out on his terrace to move some stuff.

I laughed at the humor of seeing yet another neighbor in his undies… and thought about it.

Why does this keep happening?

I think it has to do with my book.  I feel very naked in what I am sharing in it.  It’s very personal and reveals a lot about me.

It’s like I am walking around in my undies.. naked.. vulnerable.

Although, just as my neighbors show, I kind of feel I should be embarrassed.. but like them, I am not.

I am proud of myself.  Proud of all of my sides.  This book is the integration and acceptance of all of me.  The beautiful parts and the dark sides.

It’s a book about my relationship with my ex.  How that relationship brought out the worst in me (and probably him) and exposed all my limiting beliefs and childhood wounding.  It’s how I found enlightenment through relationship.

And through this uncovering of my most intimate, loving although painful relationship I found my true self.  That is something I am very proud of.  So although it’s personal and I feel like I shouldn’t be sharing some of it.. I do, to educate, help and heal others.

At least that’s my intention…