January 28, 2013
For about a week now… same time frame since I started writing this book, I have been seeing my neighbors in their underwear.
It’s kind of funny how it keeps popping up. Tight whiteys, boxers and now more…
Yesterday when I was walking Magic at night I saw one of my neighbors in his boxers, just walking out on his terrace to move some stuff.
I laughed at the humor of seeing yet another neighbor in his undies… and thought about it.
Why does this keep happening?
I think it has to do with my book. I feel very naked in what I am sharing in it. It’s very personal and reveals a lot about me.
It’s like I am walking around in my undies.. naked.. vulnerable.
Although, just as my neighbors show, I kind of feel I should be embarrassed.. but like them, I am not.
I am proud of myself. Proud of all of my sides. This book is the integration and acceptance of all of me. The beautiful parts and the dark sides.
It’s a book about my relationship with my ex. How that relationship brought out the worst in me (and probably him) and exposed all my limiting beliefs and childhood wounding. It’s how I found enlightenment through relationship.
And through this uncovering of my most intimate, loving although painful relationship I found my true self. That is something I am very proud of. So although it’s personal and I feel like I shouldn’t be sharing some of it.. I do, to educate, help and heal others.
At least that’s my intention…