February 23, 2014

This week I’ve been thinking about money.  About my success.  What I desire.  And about my mom.

All this stuff has come up for me again since I reconnected with my parents.

Someone psychic pointed out to me that I have been martyring myself with money and success.

I’ve been thinking about this and what this means… and I think subconsciously I have been trying to get my mom specifically to see my beauty, to see my gifts, minus the money.  So I have been unconsciously been keeping myself poor as a way of her seeing me for who I am, not for my money.

So this has not worked.

And again I say it’s an unconscious thing just made aware to me this week — and also I thought I had healed this, but now another layer or the final layer is coming up… thankfully.

And I don’t want to do that anymore.

I realize that some people in this world can only see our success through money.

That’s how mainstream America judges success.  How much money you have.

And that means to me — since I want to be seen by all people — plus I want to enjoy a great and abundant WEALTHY life – that I just have to choose the other side of things.  To have lots of money.

This way I will be seen as successful by everyone.

Of course it doesn’t matter what other people think.  And I know this and maybe you know this at our core — but #1 I want to be happy and being “poor” does not make me happy in the least and #2 – we’re in this physical body so might as well enjoy all the physical things to the max.  and #3 – for me being who I want to be — who I’ve gotten glimpses of who I am — one to bring spirituality mainstream, make spirituality cool, and to talk about mainstream things with mainstream people giving a spiritual twist to it, well then I want to have this money and large life to show how spirituality works, how being spiritual doesn’t mean being poor, and how you get the best of both worlds.

So anyway, I wanted to share that with you.

Hope that helps you in some way.