March 5, 2014

I was listening to a radio show yesterday and the spiritual host said something about the caller — that she posts the most uplifting things on her Facebook page and how she’s going to positively effect so many lives.

This made me think of a reading a spiritual teacher once gave to me — that I’m not in the spiritual world and I’m not in mainstream.  That neither wants or understands me.

Now she said it differently — this is my interpretation — but she also said they come to understand me and appreciate me…

But here’s the deal, I don’t post positive messages on my Facebook and Twitter and I actually don’t like when others do.  It’s garbage to me.  Fluffy shit that’s not real to me.  It’s also fluffy shit that never stays with me. I never remember what the message is and I don’t even bother reading it most of the time.  In one ear, out the next.

So I’m not the traditional spiritual teacher.  We’ve already established this.  But I don’t really care to hang out with these spiritual people — most of whom strike me as really fake or ditsy/up in the clouds/ungrounded…

And then yesterday when I was watching The Bachelor I realized that I don’t fit in with mainstream either.

For awhile I thought I was just seeing the news differently.  These court cases I’ve been covering.  I noticed how I was annoying people by my comments on it — but now I see this is for all of life.  For a long time I wasn’t watching mainstream “reality” junk TV so how would I even know that I saw this stuff differently too?

So I was watching The Bachelor and everyone was going crazy over this scene with Andi, one of the finalists on the Bachelor where she was telling off The Bachelor.  Well I watched it and I thought she was acting crazy and that it was no big deal what the guy did.

I tweeted about it and realized that this could anger people too.  Trigger people.  And that I see the whole world differently now.

I like that I have a different perspective.  Not of the norm and of higher consciousness.  I also smile because I see it’s not just “controversial” stuff I have a different view of — but it’s everything.

And it also made me think that I’m not “in” with the mainstream crew either.

So who are my allies?

Who are my fans?

Who are those who elevate me and my career?

Give me a break?  An opportunity of advancement?

And then when I’m on TV who’s watching it to open their mind?  To raise their awareness?  Because no matter what I talk about it won’t be what everyone else is saying…

Just some thoughts that have been in my mind…. 🙂

CROCODILE TOTEM has been in my life lately…. PRIMAL ENERGIES

Care of the eyes is important for Crocodile or Alligator people.

(Interesting… eyes have been on my mind lately and I’m going to my contact lens guy today to get new contacts. As I reenter the world, I’m “seeing” again.  I will post about this.)

Also beneficial are breathing techniques like those practiced in Yoga.

(This is interesting too as I’ve been doing all sorts of breathing techniques lately, they’ve been making me feel better — more powerful and release energy and anxiety)

When a Crocodile or Alligator shows up
look for an opportunity to touch very primal energies.
There will be an opportunity for new knowledge and wisdom.