March 21, 2014

Today is another day where the lizard – gecko – (REBIRTH) comes into my life.  Today it came to be my friend while I was laying at the pool; I fed it some bread. It leaned against my lounge chair

Gecko:  (REBIRTH)
Shows how to be out-going with tact and how to cope and overcome obstacles, he will show how to let go of old outdated perceptions to make room for the new. Gecko can teach how to maneuver in this transition phase of mental, spiritual and emotional death and rebirth. He will show how to emerge successfully in this spectacular change within your Self. When Gecko appears it is also a time to pay attention to dreams and visions for he will show how to shift and molt perspectives. Are you holding too tightly to current perceptions and ideas? Are you balancing your emotion and mind? Gecko can show how there is regeneration in life’s endeavors by listening to this inner guidance so one can find balance in this transition time.


This is the video I made last night.  It explains what I would write here…


This is a channeled conversation between my Spirit friends and me this morning.

That was quite a performance last night, what was I possessed?

More like inspired (in-spirit)

I maybe feel a bit embarrassed – vulnerable – all that I desire is right out there for the world to see.

As it should be..

But what about keeping one’s desires private until they manifest.

Who says they’re not ready to manifest?  Who says they’re to be kept private anymore?  Blaire sweetheart, this is who you are – this is what you desire. It’s what you hold in your heart and there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Be in pride – amazement – you are totally and completely enchanting in that video. You worked your magic and put a spell on people. It is beautiful to watch. Someone who is promoting love and light is beautiful to see – beyond words.

So what would you like me to do?

Enjoy – enjoy being you. Great things come to those who wait – speak – be – expect – anticipate – and say “aren’t I great”  Be that – for you are.

Nature is good, beach, outside. Fun.

Thank you so much for that soccer game, so much fun. (I played soccer with 6yr olds yesterday on the beach)

Being around kids is very beneficial for you. Notice – and we laugh and smile here – notice how you had fears around them if they’d include you – if they’d like you. Ha! Blaire, you are so damn cute – and just notice how sensitive you truly are. You’ve always been like that but now you know how to manage it better – but could you imagine how difficult it was for you as a child to navigate through your feelings. How scary the world was for you? Always picking up others emotions – always in fear whether people like you or not – constantly doing a read of it. Every movement to take the psychic / emotional temperature – that’s a lot to take in. Be kind to yourself – in retrospect.


Then a few hours later because I was again in this state of “what am I supposed to do now” and this “newness” and “blankness” “nothingness feels weird — different — strange — new — unknown”…

Angels, guides, archangels, ascended masters please help me. Can you please tell me if I am holding myself back.


No I’m not holding myself back or not you can’t tell me 🙂

No you’re not holding yourself back.  You are out there, declaring, out on the edge, trusting.  The sadness is past let downs. The vulnerability is because you are trusting and at a place you’ve never been before. Out from old energy, in this new space and it’s new territory so you’re not sure how to react, how to feel, respond, what to think or do.  So in instances like this, you simply be. Settle into the new space that is here. Let things be revealed.

Am I wrong to think things will pick up rapidly?

No not at all.

Am I supposed to keep making videos? Keep going? Should I post the video again?  It feels vulnerable posting it on Twitter.

Well, good Blaire, we’re glad you are realizing that – we know you want us to tell you if that’s a good thing to do or a bad one and we really cannot say. When you don’t know what to do – just sit in stillness and be.

Should I delete my comment about Sandy Hook?

No, let that stay.

Dearest Blaire, you don’t need to know what’s going on every moment, you don’t need to understand. You don’t need to figure out equations and step by step plans. Stillness, let it be, rest – settle into the ground. What will be, will be. You let your vision be shared, you let your desires be known – now let them go out into The Universe and be returned to you.

You already got an email and ebook today — what other gifts will you receive?

When you say let things be returned that makes me excited and expectant and like something good is on the horizon.

Well, yes Blaire cause that is true.

There is fear, doubt, concern. Like a little girl with her parents – unfulfilled promises – please don’t tell me something you can’t produce.

We are glad Blaire you realize this, there is where your weakness lies.  Unfulfilled expectations, unfulfilled desires, unfulfilled promises.

So how about you allow that part of yourself to be healed now. How about you stay in the open space of maybe this time things will be different. Those old disappointments were stacked up due to wounding and an unhealthy cycle and let this create anew. New experience with expectations, desires, and promises. Can you be okay with suspending disbelief?  With suspending judgment? With suspending “oh my fragile heart is going to be broken again” – can you let yourself breathe through and be open to the mystery? Sure you can.

Thank you.


I came back home, opened my email, and another email of praise about my Lilou interview.