March 26, 2014

I woke up this morning and this word was being repeated in my head over and over and over again.

My guides were urging me to write it down so I remembered to look it up in the morning.

Well, I did… and it ends up meaning = typically of an action or activity) wicked or criminal, monstrous, wicked, evil.

So why would I need to know that word?  Why would they wake me up to that word?

And I know it has to do with all my studying with the Illuminati — but again, why would that word be repeated over and over in my head?

It also makes me a bit concerned about what’s to happen today… but I don’t want to go down that road.

Yesterday I was noticing dragonflies non-stop everywhere I went.  I knew it was significant.

Then yesterday early evening when I was Magic home I saw a dead dragonfly along our path.  Wow, what are the odds.

Dragonfly — what sticks out to me, is about THE WINDS OF CHANGE.

Which is good news.  The dead one… well, I think that has to do again with a new cycle / end of a cycle.

But what’s the deal with all the dead animals?  It must be doing something on another level.  I had the dead totem animal thing months ago / maybe a year already…. so I just look at the totems and let them do their work on other levels, I thank them and that’s it.  I observe…

Then last night I had major cramps.  Period cramps.  They were the worst they’ve been in several years.  And then I started having this weird parallel lives type of thing.  Moving forward on my timeline — that this is how it’d feel when I give birth, how the pain was terrible, how I don’t know how I’m going to do it and so on.

Again, it’s hard to explain, it was just very weird.

And then this morning I was asking Spirit what was the deal with last night, that I felt like I was giving birth — and they said — #1 – you don’t need to know everything that’s going on and #2 – I was giving birth to myself — to my new life.

So we’ll see what comes from that…

Like I said, I just observe.

I don’t know if that’s a negative way to be — a “prove it to me” sort of thing… but remember how I had those toad totems, which was leaping forward and wealth… and now this stuff… well, I just say, okay, when it’s my time to step up in this world, then you guys will give me the opportunity.

Until then, I just be.

At times I still feel I’m wasting my time, bored — but I get it, it’s just different feeling that always doing like we are trained.  And again, you step into this timelessness way of being when you just wake up each day and see where it takes you.

I hardly leave my home — hardly leave my neighborhood — it’s a weird life — but I’m not motivated to go drive anywhere.. where would I go? What would I do?  So I take it as a rest.  I know I’m going to be very busy sometime soon, so I just take it as being / quiet time… waiting, watching as to what’s next.

Again, it’s all kind of strange — this period of my life.

One day I’m sure it’ll make more sense… it’s just a time for me to be BE.  Develop my psychic gifts more, learn… again… be.