January 1, 2013
Been feeling very grateful for my parents these last two days. Yesterday I met my parents and some family friends for lunch. I told them partially about what my video was going to be about. My violence detox.
Right off the bat, my family friends (who I’ve known for a very long time, they’re like parents) started challenging my “violence” definition. There were mixed reviews. Some challenging of me back, and so on. A good conversation. Almost like a debate.
And this is what has been dawning me. Because this is how I was brought up.
My father and my mom on various occasions will debate me. Debate my ideas. Debate my comments. Debate my thoughts.
Growing up and until just recently… like maybe a week or so ago, I used to think that they were always not supportive. Attacking me, possibly. Not loving, kind of. Overall not supportive.
For I saw being supportive of telling me how great my ideas were and encouraging me to share them and then clapping along the way.
And my parents would tell me, good thoughts Blaire. Good ideas, and so on…
But there was always this debate in there too. This challenging.
Now I get what this is.
It’s something that played out a lot in my relationship with my ex as well. Mirroring my relationship with my parents, and with my family, and then yes, giving me the ability to heal it.
So now I get what this is. This is a strong mental mind, as I call it… a thinking mind that looks for the truth. Someone who likes what I’m saying, but needs some help being convinced… opening up to the idea.
Key here — a person LIKING MY IDEA.
Not opposing it. Not opposing me. BUT MAKING MY ARGUMENT STRONGER.
And this is what totally dawned on me yesterday during lunch.
I at first only told them all a little bit of my idea… they started challenging it or telling me no… and then I stopped.
This is normal reaction for me. Old reaction.
But then it dawned on me. My parents (and family friends) are MY PREPPERS and I am so grateful for them.
Let me tell them more of my idea and let them come at me with challenges and then when I am putting together my “speech” to the world through video, I will use their challenges to work for me.
And that’s exactly how this works.
One of my gifts is that I make people think about things that they don’t normally think about.
I bring awareness to them to LOOK AT THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY.
When people are waking up to this, they have questions. They will say NO. That’s their ego. That’s them questioning.
This is all good and healthy.
It doesn’t mean I (or you) are doing a bad job… it means you are doing an AWESOME JOB
Because they are thinking about what you are telling them
You’ve got their attention
It’s not like they are ignoring you or dismissing you
THEY ARE LISTENING TO YOU
HELL YEA! I AM SO FUCKING INTO THIS AND SO JAZZING ON THIS TODAY (and yesterday)
And that’s always been my thing.
I FUCKING LOVE DEBATE
I have been thinking about this hobby a lot lately.
I think I tried to do the debate team for a little bit in high school. Maybe I was in a group that was TRYING to make debate happen as a club. I can’t really remember, but I do know it went no where and I think we only did it once or twice.
BUT I LOVED IT
FUCKING LOVED IT
And this is what I have been thinking about over the last month or so… how in a few months or years, after I do some things in my Love Guru career that I want to go back to school and take some classes at my leisure to become a lawyer.
Just for the fun of it.
I love learning and I have heard several times while growing up that I should be a lawyer cause I have this passion to share my views, to win certain topics, etc…. things related.
And this also came to me the other day before I did “my speech”
I was wondering if I should type up my argument, write it out…. just like Martin Luther King maybe did.
I need to check back on tapes of him talking.
I did make some notes before I made my speech. I do think it’s pretty passionate. Pretty dynamite.
There were certain points I wanted to cover.
MAN I LOVE THIS!!! I SO LOVE THIS!!!
So I am so grateful for my parents. They were my preppers. My preppers for this great career I am doing now as a leader of a movement.
WOW. LIFE IS SO FUCKING GOOD RIGHT NOW
Here’s the video I made yesterday and put out to the world today….