January 24, 2013

I haven’t been able to write as much on here since I’ve been busy with my new writing project.

I am saving all my energy for that and it’s taking up a lot of my time.

I enjoy it – the writer’s lifestyle.  I can do whatever I want whenever I want and usually am in my head and connected to Spirit the whole day, with walks in between and then writing.

I keep saying that this book is going to be finished soon and I do believe it will be – it has to be.  It makes me cry and linger on memories of my ex and I and it makes me so sad.

But yet, I continue.  I feel strongly guided to write it and I know this book will be a great gift to the world.  I know it’s a message I am meant to deliver.

So I carry on, each day praying, to please help heal the hurt that I still carry and to help me release it.  There was so much love between my ex and I, which I still carry, which usually ends up making me feel depressed, worn from all the energy expelled, helpless and hopeless.  I am having trouble making sense of it some of the time and some moments of the day I find it hard to even function.

Yet, I continue… I know I need to continue writing.