May 21, 2013
My issue these days… which this is not my only one, as clearly I need to work on my thoughts. This has come up again today. Bombed out today. Crap.
Well, the thing I have been thinking about is my clothing.
What do I wear when I am in public, on TV, speaking?
I feel embarrassed, let down kind of over what I wore the other day.
It looked like a rag.
Not proud of it at all.
Plus my hair is too long, I needed a haircut. Should have gotten that.
I know these are all lessons, and again I need to be kinder to myself. More compassion.
I need to go shopping. Try more clothes on. Play around with clothes.
Sometimes this is a fun idea. Other times, like right now as I write this post, it feels like a drag.
I feel unsure how to dress. I feel so drawn to Roman / Greek style — G-ddess like. But what did they wear? Sheets. Haha. A toga.
If you look at Ghandi, Moses, or any of the greats – this is what they wore.
Yes I know this is a long time ago, but this is what I feel drawn too.. yet, when I wore it the other day I felt inferior. Ridiculous. Well, my bra was too padded, I need to get a different one. Tie some color around my waist. I just felt insecure next to this other Love Expert / Relationship person who was dressed in the traditional city girl style. Tight skirt, high heels, real sharp.
I could dress like that too… but again I don’t feel drawn to that. Or maybe I do and I’m just lying to myself.
Anyway — for the laughs, here you go.
PS: Well, forget this. My outfit was just too plain. I realize this. I think if I had a colored something around my waist I would feel better, more powerful. You can compare this to my website picture and the only difference there between what I wore to the expo and here is that it was on one shoulder, so a sharper cut, and had a design on it. That’s the difference, that’s the issue, that’s how we fix it. Okay, calm down. Everything is okay. This was just a small expo, a practice. You’ll get it Blaire and there’s no need to be perfect right out of the gate. No one is.