April 3, 2013

So I’m not sure what the next step is with my interviewing career — logically I can’t figure it out at the moment, I’m too busy processing all the other stuff today that you’ve been reading about in the previous posts — but it feels like that was something so beautiful and something so big that I did yesterday.

I was really good at it.  I had a really good vibe with Hugh.  Had great questions.  And I felt SEEN.  REALLY SEEN.

Over the years on and off I was playing around with radio.  But radio is not my thing.  Why was I hiding out there?  Sure, it’s something I can do — and I’m sure I will continue to do it on a bigger scheme, but my heart has always been on TV.  Making movies.

Ever since I was young I have been videotaping myself.  Making skits.  Performing and recording it.  I have loved it.

And yesterday, with all my nervousness leading up to it, etc… it makes you feel alive.  Sure I feel shaky and nervous beforehand but the show must go on and I feel so good doing it.  BEING SEEN.  DOING IT.

I’ve watched that video or parts of it several times already.  I love it.

So I’m not sure what’s next with that, but I know there must be more to come.  I feel I’ve really stepped into something I am supposed to be doing yesterday.

PS:  Here are two notes I got from people in my writers group.  I didn’t know how to respond.  The first one, which was the nicest and most passionate, was from someone who I was trying to be friendly to originally but then heard she was talking shit to me.  Strange at how now she’s emailing me what a great job I did.  Don’t know what to believe anymore.  I’m just staying away, moving on. I can’t be bothered with them anymore.  I wasn’t going to reply – but I did.  Stupid of me, maybe.  I told her thank you.

In any event, check out the feedback below, it was really nice what she wrote – and it is true too 🙂

Hmm, who knows.  I think it’s just best to keep moving AWAY from these people.  Fucking crazy town.  One minute they are trying to take you down and talking shit and then the next they’re like “you did a great job” – huh?  weird.  That shit is too complicated for me to be apart of.


Hi Blaire!  Somebody sent me your YouTube interview with Hugh Howey and I think it’s dynamite. I posted the link on my Goodreads page. I’ll post it on my Goodreads page for my pen name too.

Loved your questions, loved the informality and your rapport. He is such a cool guy.

Great job!


Hi Blaire,
Thanks for sharing. I thought you did a really good job with the interview. I really enjoyed it, hes an interesting guy.
Thanks again