January 3, 2013

My agent.  Well, what is there really to say.

She never got back to me.

HA!  Can you believe it?  I can.

It was the holidays and she flaked.  Maybe she didn’t flake at all, maybe she just didn’t know how to communicate to write back something like “I’m on vacation til the 1st” or something along those lines.  Bad communication.  Maybe she’s not interested after she saw the updates to the contract I made.  They weren’t anything bad, they were just fair.  She may have been trying to pull a fast one on me.. and my intuition kicked in, plus I’m doing all this self empowerment stuff, so in the past I would have hurried to sign with “a person in power” and to do something I “dream about doing… like getting an agent and selling my book” – but I didn’t.  Thanks to my growth and healing.  Mainly my healing.  Thank you!  So grateful!

So she’s been in my mind the last few days.  It’s January 3rd and people are back at work.

Some may say… check in on her, see how she’s doing, get her to reply back.

But I’m just letting it be.  Moving on… when I’m ready.

You see, that’s the funny thing.  My logical mind is like, move on.  And I am energetically.  She hasn’t responded to me and I ain’t about to “chase” anyone down like I used to.  OVERCOMMUNICATE.  That was always one of my “problems.”  People were retarded with their social skills and I overcommunicated so we could have some sort of relationship.  I would get frustrated and drained and then angry – and they would wonder what my problem was.

That’s fucked up.

So anyway, not doing that.

And here my intuition is like move on – and if she contacts me then that’s when I will re-examine her and our possible situation, tapping into my intuition again…. but as of now, although I don’t feel like sending out new queries to agents, I do still want to get my book published.

I guess now I’m just waiting.  Sitting in the “in between” time.  just being.  I’ll get back on the agent pursuit when I feel intuitively it’s ready.  Don’t worry, I’m not waiting too long.   All in the proper timing.  I also kind of wonder / feel that an agent will just pop up.  Maybe meet him/her through the contacts I have been making socially.  I know it’s all going to work out really good.

Same deal as the next… it’s only mid afternoon and we got another number communication when I was writing this post.  Very nice.  Thanks angels, guides, etc, I love you too. xo

555 — Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being “positive” or “negative” since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continuing seeing and feeling yourself to be at peace.

and more of these… 222 — Have faith. Everything’s going to be all right. Don’t worry about anything, as this situation is resolving itself beautifully for everyone involved.