November 12, 2012
So when you implement these new ways of being into your life there’s going to be a learning curve where you may very well feel awkward as hell.
Awkward. Uncomfortable. Stupid. Embarrassed.
This is natural. Still proceed forward.
I have always done this for the sake of growth when I was in relationships… share all of me, no matter when things came up, for the sake of learning and growing through it – but when it came to business and in communicating with students, I would hold back.
Again, the same old shit of being professional and spiritual teachers should have their act together – and it’s better to appear all together than appear as a fool.
But I let that go today. Hoorah!
Who cares about reputation! 🙂
Not like anything bad happened or not that I disrespected anyone or anything… I just spoke my truth. I shared what I have to offer and was maybe a little bit “annoying” by bringing it up again – or maybe I would be perceived as being “pushy” or “rude” or maybe even “after the money”
And this is what I always thought about salesy people who presented their material or tried to get me to do sessions – I always backed away. Thought they were after my money. Felt put off. Felt annoyed. Turned off.
But now I am viewing this differently. I view this as passion (not for them necessarily, but for me).
I view this as determination.
I am passionate about my gifts. I am determined to offer them to you.
If I don’t share with you what I do and all of what I do… and even push you along the way a bit (there’s that bossy thing coming up) – then I don’t feel right anymore.
It’s about learning to love and accept my “bossy” side.
You see, I know I’m not after anyone’s money. Like I made in a previous post I don’t even think about the money anymore. I just think, now, about helping the person.
I know I can help you. Period. End of story.
Not always. But from the times that I know I can help you, if I hold back because I am afraid of what you are going to think of me or fear of being pushy – well, hell no. Not anymore.
This is a new me… and again, like I said earlier, there’s going to be a learning curve.
A shifting of people.
People who will move closer to me because they can feel my passion and they like my energy and a shifting away of people who don’t like it.
I have more realizations about this, I am going to separate it into a separate post since it’s a separate but related topic. I’d like you to blog about what you just read and what it sparked for you…. Enjoy!