July 7 2013

The thing that I’m not sure about with all of this is, am I sabotaging myself?

Is this the way — or a way — unconsciously I am sabotaging myself?  My career?

Or is it making my career?

I think it’s the latter, but it’s so g-d damn sensitive subject I feel afraid of almost anything I can or will say.

So this is what I’ll pray about tonight.  I’m going to meditate too.

I really need help.

Like lots and lots of help and guidance.

I need to just be in the silence and listen.

Pray to be protected and helped.  Pray to bring more supporters to me.

I’ve noticed that I seem to be attracting more followers and sure have been getting much more views on my videos.

Much more comments, although they are negative.  Haha.  Man, you gotta laugh about this, I don’t know what else to do.  Lightens the mood.

I’ve also noticed that I have a whole lot more men listening to my message and remarking.

That’s interesting.

And also I had some private emails from people that said they wanted to work with me.

They wrote through YouTube and I didn’t respond.  They can contact me through my website if they’re serious.  I’m not about to explain my services to an “anonymous” person on YouTube who doesn’t have a picture when my website address is listed all over the place, they can see my services and rates on the website.

Okay, goodnight.

This week has surely been TRANSFORMATIVE.  Wow, huge changes with me and my career.