January 5, 2013

Just got this…

555 — Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being “positive” or “negative” since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continuing seeing and feeling yourself to be at peace.

The other thing here that I want to note, is something else that has changed.

Remember how I wanted people to post on Facebook, or Twitter, or through email… how I wanted feedback.

Well, I realize this was an insecurity in me.  Maybe I questioned if my work was helping people.  I would be on a constant see-saw, “yes, I’m awesome and helping so many” and “I don’t know… what kind of changes are people getting”

But I saw it time and time again.  Saw how people were changing, but yet I questioned.

I realize that this is why I wanted my students to email me.

I wanted to hear how they were doing.

To give me confidence.

Maybe to give me faith.

Yes, to give me confidence.

But now I have that internally.  I have been doing this for long enough… and again, I went through HEALING for this… and POOF, here I am 🙂

Not needing those emails anymore…

Of course, positive feedback is good, but I don’t go searching or calling for it like I did before.  I see how that was an unbalanced, unhealthy wounding reaction.

And I am so happy to have that internal knowingness now.  … I hope it stays (hehe, j/k) 🙂