January 5, 2013

Over the years, teachers and healers have also presented me with an option to get email support.

Some did it as equivalent to a paid session / instead of a phone session, they’d do email support.

Some did 3 questions for x amount.

Some did additional fees to phone sessions, as an upgrade.

And some offered a flat rate for unlimited access via phone or email.

I have thought about the possibility of all of these but have never implemented any of them.


Although in personally… with my teachers and healers… throughout the years I have sometimes wanted more support, through email or whatever… and I think it’s a “nice” thing to do.

Me, personally, I don’t want to offer it.  I don’t want to email – at all.

This is a new place where I’m at.  I have been in the grey area for a long time.

I’m happy to be here, that’s the plus of healing certain wounds.

The need to please.

The need to give and give and be there for others, non-stop.

The guilt of asking for your free time.

Who knows.

I realize this about me.  Although I can write and write and write when I’m having an issue I’m healing through.. and although I sometimes have millions of questions for my healers…

Me, again… doing this as a profession, I just don’t want to do it.  I don’t want to offer it.

Again, like I said, this is new to me.

I used to give myself shit for feeling this.  I also always said I wanted to help my students with everything, there was issues with getting attached, wanting to be their “everything”

You’ve even read things like this on this blog.

But again, this is where healing has come into place.  Thank you g-d.

Now, I am comfortable saying, it’s okay for my students to go to other resources to find these answers.  They don’t need to come to me for everything.  Yes, if they want to schedule an emergency session then I’ll help them, of course I am there to support.  But with email, no, I’m sorry.  It takes up too much of my time and of my life force.  It always frustrates me because I can’t give a short answer and if I do I don’t feel like I’m doing it justice, as I always have a lot of information on many topics… many things that people email me through are, again, conversations.  Not quickie answers, even if they are wanting that from me…

So, that’s where I am.  It’s amazing how things change.