April 1, 2013
Over the weekend I did another phase of my “getting ready to move” — I’ve been really feeling pushed to clean out everything and gather things from my grandmother’s house and my parent’s house – things I have stored there.
Have everything with me.
This is partly cause I don’t talk to anyone anymore.
And more so, I think, because I am getting ready to move. I need to gather and slim down the stuff. Sell stuff if I can, although this always sucks — it’s more about me donating.
I have no idea where I’m going. But I want to move. I’m getting myself more and more ready to move.
This first started happening two weeks ago (I think) – when I started clearing through stuff.
I need to give notice to my management company in 1 1/2 months and I want to be out of here.
But I need some direction as to where to go.
I can’t think of where I want to live in Florida. Many times I fucking hate it here. And I think that’s cause I’m here all year long. I would rather live somewhere else and have a second home here. I think I will do that.
But for now, many things annoy me about Florida. I’m ready to move.
But on Saturday I was clearing through things too fast and Spirit was like “slow the fuck down” (they didn’t curse) 🙂 and I got a little sick through the whole expedition. Nose running, etc. That was all on Saturday.
And then Spirit gave me another message, that I don’t need to push so hard. Relax into the changes, accept them. Let them happen. Be guided, graceful.
So I chilled out on Sunday and didn’t feel good dizzy on and off all Sunday too.
Doing too much. Too fast. Clearing too fast.
Slow the fuck down.
Getting ready to move.