April 1, 2013

Over the weekend I did another phase of my “getting ready to move” — I’ve been really feeling pushed to clean out everything and gather things from my grandmother’s house and my parent’s house – things I have stored there.

Have everything with me.

This is partly cause I don’t talk to anyone anymore.

And more so, I think, because I am getting ready to move.  I need to gather and slim down the stuff.  Sell stuff if I can, although this always sucks — it’s more about me donating.

I have no idea where I’m going.  But I want to move.  I’m getting myself more and more ready to move.

This first started happening two weeks ago (I think) – when I started clearing through stuff.

I need to give notice to my management company in 1 1/2 months and I want to be out of here.

But I need some direction as to where to go.

I can’t think of where I want to live in Florida.  Many times I fucking hate it here.  And I think that’s cause I’m here all year long.  I would rather live somewhere else and have a second home here.  I think I will do that.

But for now, many things annoy me about Florida.  I’m ready to move.

But on Saturday I was clearing through things too fast and Spirit was like “slow the fuck down” (they didn’t curse) 🙂  and I got a little sick through the whole expedition.  Nose running, etc.  That was all on Saturday.

And then Spirit gave me another message, that I don’t need to push so hard.  Relax into the changes, accept them.  Let them happen.  Be guided, graceful.

So I chilled out on Sunday and didn’t feel good dizzy on and off all Sunday too.

Doing too much.  Too fast.  Clearing too fast.

Slow the fuck down.

🙂

Getting ready to move.