April 1, 2013
Over the weekend I did another phase of my “getting ready to move” — I’ve been really feeling pushed to clean out everything and gather things from my grandmother’s house and my parent’s house – things I have stored there.
Have everything with me.
This is partly cause I don’t talk to anyone anymore.
And more so, I think, because I am getting ready to move. I need to gather and slim down the stuff. Sell stuff if I can, although this always sucks — it’s more about me donating.
I have no idea where I’m going. But I want to move. I’m getting myself more and more ready to move.
This first started happening two weeks ago (I think) – when I started clearing through stuff.
I need to give notice to my management company in 1 1/2 months and I want to be out of here.
But I need some direction as to where to go.
I can’t think of where I want to live in Florida. Many times I fucking hate it here. And I think that’s cause I’m here all year long. I would rather live somewhere else and have a second home here. I think I will do that.
But for now, many things annoy me about Florida. I’m ready to move.
But on Saturday I was clearing through things too fast and Spirit was like “slow the fuck down” (they didn’t curse) 🙂 and I got a little sick through the whole expedition. Nose running, etc. That was all on Saturday.
And then Spirit gave me another message, that I don’t need to push so hard. Relax into the changes, accept them. Let them happen. Be guided, graceful.
So I chilled out on Sunday and didn’t feel good dizzy on and off all Sunday too.
Doing too much. Too fast. Clearing too fast.
Slow the fuck down.
🙂
Getting ready to move.