May 24, 2013

So I’ve been gung ho posting my items for sale on Facebook, Craigslist, and now going to do so on Ebay.  And I feel cheap.

It’s my mom’s voice.

Judgment

Insecurity

Assumptions.

That if I’m selling items, I need the money.

That I’m cheap.

That I’m poor.

Like I’m scrounging at every dollar.

And maybe I am, maybe also I value the items and know there’s money in them?

I don’t know.

She always donates.  That’s how I was raised.  Donate stuff.  Don’t sell.

My assumptions of how I was raised was that only poor people sell.

Rich people donate.

Deep breathe in, deep breathe out.

It’s not like my mom is the authority on rich people.  No one is.  Everyone is different.

Rich people sell their homes.  They don’t donate them.  Or at least most do not.

Rich people sell their cars.  And their yachts.  They don’t donate them.  Again, most don’t.

Just let it go.

This doesn’t matter.

Who cares who judges me for posting on Facebook the items I want to sell.  It says things about them.  Their projections onto me, not who I really am.  Who cares if I want to sell items.  That’s my choice.  After all they are MY items.

And PS – I have donated items my whole life because of this belief.  While I saw others around me benefit from feeling confidence in their selling ability and enjoying the money they made from their items.

This pattern needs to end.  It’s being broken now.

Thank you.