May 11, 2013
So here’s the thing I am currently mulling over in my mind. About the difference between attracting love and attracting more money.
Well, when I was attracting love — partnering with the Universe to attract love, I didn’t have a deadline. HAHA! I just got the amazing joke with this one. Actually there was a deadline. I did have a deadline! Oh my, thank you so much for encouraging me to write this post. I was writing it a bit in my journal but wanted to document it on the site.
I DID HAVE A DEADLINE!
You see, I was going to complain here — the poor me — mind trying to figure things out issue — saying that when you want to attract “the One” there is no deadline, you find it whenever you find it. There’s no urgency.
And then I was going to compare that to attracting money — partnering with the Universe to attract money. And I was going to say, but I DO have a deadline with attracting more money. That I need it before the end of the month. I have bills. And I don’t want to ask my parents for help, I don’t even think at this point they’d say yes since I don’t speak to them and things have been rocky – and I have no one else to ask.
BUT I just had a huge realization. Oh my, thank you so much!!
Amazing cause I pulled the EPIPHANY CARD this morning / HIGHER SELF and this is what it was referring too… thank you so much!!!
I feel safe now. I feel loved. I feel taken care of. I feel totally relaxed in my guidance.
I DID HAVE A DEADLINE WITH FINDING “THE ONE”
I had it set 6 months from the time I put up the website www.marryblaire.com
And at first I remember it was crazy on how many dates I was going on. I was so busy doing, doing. So lots of dates, learning lessons, quickly getting through things that first month. That was July into August.
I remember I was quickly tired.
Then in oh gosh, when was it? I think it was within that first month or maybe in the second month, I went to a tv shooting and met a guy there — and then was in a relationship with him.
I was divinely guided to the project and to him!
The prayer was answered. At least the answers were starting to come — on how to attract love by partnering with the Universe.
And from there I kept upgrading, getting a fuller picture, getting more understanding — and by the time I was at my 6 month mark, I had already dated 2 of my soulmates and was in a relationship (I think) — I have to look up timelines, but I’m pretty sure.
I was guided from one “One” to the next.
So now I am doing it again with finances, except now no one is watching me through the process. BUT I am watching myself. I guess this is more private for me. More nervewracking.
Okay –lesson learned.
1 – I am being guided
2 – Spirit DOES understand deadlines. (Ah, big breathe of air)
3 – I was taking from one manifestation to the next.
FOLLOW WHAT SPIRIT IS TELLING ME TO DO.
Spirit pushed me real hard to do this Singles Expo. I asked several times after I committed and before I sent the check to apply. They said DO IT.
Same deal with getting a part time job – I’m pretty sure they say NO, DON’T.
Wow, doing this with money feels so much more primal, a sense of security and safety, but now I am feeling better. (I hope)
This also tells me I need to make it more of a game and have more fun with it.
I am way too serious about this shit.
STOP. This is all a game. HAVE FUN WITH LIFE.
Have fun with this adventure.
I know, deep down, as I have been telling myself this as well — I know that this is a really good place to be in. BE MORE IN THE WONDER. HAVE MORE FUN AND LIGHTNESS!
Which makes me think to make videos about it…
But I question whether to still keep this silent. I guess there’s some shame around it… having money / not having money, etc… hmmm…