June 19, 2013

I woke up late today.  I’m exhausted from pushing myself with these follow ups.

Exhausted from thinking it over in my head.

I woke up in the middle of the night — which was probably early morning — still in a dream, half out of it, praying to Spirit that I was exhausted, felt I was pushing too much, that I would rather receive these TV execs coming to me and please help me receive rather than feeling this push to constantly pursue with this.

Have I gone back to my old ways?

Having this plan of action of who I’m about to call, etc….email, etc… constant thoughts of strategizing.

Have I left G-d out of the picture?

Sure, I’m praying and asking for help, but I haven’t been slowing down to receive.

And I wake up tired — again — today.

Let me see what messages I get from my two books.

I’m sure they’ll be about slowing down and receiving.  I guess I’m not following up today.

I have no desire to do that right now.  To be that in your face – go getter girl.

Angels, please, I need your help.

Message 1 – SING.  Convey my deep emotions, for joy, expressing myself, allowing myself to be free and joyful.

Angels are giving me this message to raise my vibration and express repressed emotions…

Message 2 – CONNECTION TO THE MOON.  Connect with the moon and my heart use my powers to produce divine magic.

I don’t know 100% what this means.  Plus it’s daytime so how am I to connect to the moon now.  It said something about the ocean, but I don’t know if I’ll go to the beach today — when I did on the weekend and was in the sun I got a bad headache for the rest of the day/night/next day.  But I WAS spending more time in the moonlight a few weeks ago… and I’ll go back to that.  I did feel more powerful.

PS:  There is the summer solstice on Friday (21st) and the full moon on Sunday (I think / pretty sure / gotta check)