June 14, 2013

So lately, this whole week, my guides have been giving me messages — from cards I’ve been pulling and messages from my angel book — to take risks, to get courage, to let my gifts go to work for me.  To put myself out there, to stop blocking myself.

And each time I get one of these messages I get upset.


I keep asking them – what do you want me to do?

What’s the next step?

I’m ready to move forward with TV but I don’t know what to do next?

I want someone from TV to contact me.

Please help me, please help me.

So I end up waiting and then another day goes by and I wait again and still nothing.

And I am happy to put myself out there.

I questioned if taking myself off Facebook was a way of hiding… if it was a way of sabotaging myself…. but when I asked that and even considered doing a FB account with just the connections that I like getting updates from and use an anonymous name… I got that simplify message again, so I decided to not go that route.

But then again, have courage – put yourself out there – step forward, the world is waiting for you.

But what?

What should I do?

And I know if I put myself out there that doors will open.  It seems that things with TV when I have moved forward, it’s been really easy for me to connect with people, to get the information I need, etc.

But what am I to do?

Today I decided to send an email to this tv exec that looked appeal to me.  I’m not sure if this is the way to go.  To send random “query” letters.  I just sent one.

Not looking to exhaust myself — and seeing what happens.

I happened to get the lady’s assistant on the phone.  Again, another door open.

We’ll see when she replies.  I hope she replies.  But moreover I hope she’s a good fit.

Still I pray… Universe, what’s the next step for me with presenting my work?

Please bring me to the right person.

But still, I don’t like the idea of sending out these query emails.

I wonder how you are supposed to connect with TV execs?  What is the next step?

I know doors will open once I figure out what to do.

My guides have been incredibly quiet with this.  I don’t like the idea of sitting still, not moving forward with this – and that’s what it feels like I did this week 🙁