February 25, 2014
I realized the last day or two that this time in my life, as I am preparing for my move — because I can see someone say, like my mom saying “you’ve been packing for a long time” or “why is it taking so long” or ” you don’t even know where you’re going”
You see I recently reconnected with my parents and have seen my mom quite a lot — maybe too much — and her voice has been in my head again. Not sure if it’s affecting me as much… I have to think about this.
But in any event, I am very happy about the time it’s taking me to clear. I realize that these last few weeks it’s been an adjustment of energy and clearing of my doubts and fears.
So as I move my physical items around and think about how I will do this — I notice that fears about my dreams actually coming true — and can I do it? Can I produce? Can I really be that person I dream of? And so on….
So I’m noticing my fears and doubts, and doing the work to clear and heal them, and being okay with it. This is where I am now, I’m moving through it, and I’m okay with it. Compassion. Patience. We’re moving in the right direction. Everything’s going as planned.