June 6, 2013
Yesterday I officially put my prayer of “please bring me more paying students” to rest.
I’m not praying like that anymore. I find it unnecessary.
I see how clearing out students was necessary for this time. I needed to feel the rejection and the insecurity and whatever else in order to move me to the place where I am now.
I wasn’t happy then.
I wasn’t happy with the students I was attracting (overall) — and I wasn’t totally happy with how I was working. There was something that was off. Uncomfortable. I overlooked it because I didn’t know what else to do.
But now that I’ve had this S P A C E in my schedule and in my mental state — because, guess what? When I’m working privately with someone, I still think about them when they are not in session — many people say this is a boundaries issue, but it’s part of the thing I offer to my students, because I do care about them and I am invested in their growth, healing and changes as well.
So with all that clutter in the mental space, I wouldn’t have welcomed in this new way of doing things. I would have still always wanted to do TV but not taken the time to pursue it.
Which I am doing now (and getting great guidance and doors opening — easier flow)
So I’m letting it be.
Gratitude for the experiences. Grateful for the lessons. Spirit is providing money for me — I have released that attachment to “please bring money through my business” demand as well — and I’m just letting it be.
The money is flowing. It always will. And things are still shifting for me — and of course it will come through my business.
I am accepting more and more my gifts… my “weirdness” that comes with it.. the judgments people may have with the way I do things, the way I am moving into…. when it’s really me living life to the fullest. Having fun. Being free. The more I accept my gifts, the more I release the concern about what other people think about me, or how they feel when I’m expressing myself, the more I am able to find my tribe, and do the work I am meant to do, as well as get paid abundantly for it. I am started to get it now. Thank you.