May 10, 2013
I had a lot of healing tools to do last night — I had to complete it this morning — and I did.
I sent love to all parties involved in my life. All people who I have been carrying anger and resentment towards. People who I feel scorned me.
I released all of that with love.
Cleared the land and am re-building my life on my terms.
Building the new land — my life — in love and in my power.
I knew carrying this anger, frustration, upset, resentment towards these people was weighing me down, but I couldn’t let it go. I didn’t want to. Now I feel that I have. I think… although I question how do you really know?
A healer once said to me that it showed that she really forgave her parents for what they did to her because she can have a relationship with them. I don’t know about that. For me, I’d rather just not have communication. I don’t need to have them in my life at all.
Maybe it’s not everyone’s way, maybe other’s choose to still have these people in their life and close to them — and to dance around their emotions towards them, I don’t know. For me, it’s not my way. At least not right now.
I’m enjoying being in my own energy without anyone’s agenda or energy interfering.
I’d rather just develop new relationships. Ones where people are going to treat me right.