April 7, 2013
This post should really be before the last one, as this is what I was going through last night.
When I was laying in bed last night and was thinking about why I was intimidated about living at this luxury place — I was doubting things and/or talking myself out of it — I got a message from one of the Ascended Masters I’ve been working with, Dana – that I am (we all are) royalty and it said basically to go for the gold — that I deserve it – and she will help me with feelings of self worth — cause that’s what I have been dealing with — or at least yesterday, not feeling worthy of living there.
And that was the realization. Because I have spent more for a place I lived in – much more but the building, the location, and the people who lived in the place were not as nice “groomed” as the people in this building.
I’m telling you, it’s a whole adjustment to me.
Not one I’m not used to – cause again I was raised like this – I was the one who always rebelled against it, turned up my nose (why do you need that? kind of comments, it’s snobby — but look, I was the one being snobby!) – anti-materialism.
Well, Spirit was asking me questions about this. Making me realize things.
Why was I having issues with this building – these people – this lifestyle?
It was because I didn’t feel worthy to live there.
Worthy to be in that class of people.
But that’s me. That could be me. I just need to look at myself differently.
When you look at yourself differently, you change your life.
That’s such a powerful sentence. It really resonates with me.
And that’s what I’m doing now. Changing how I look at myself. Changing my life.
I’m grateful that Spirit – especially my Ascended Masters are helping me with this.
PS: I wanted to include this conversation I had with Magic last night. He’s so cute and he always makes me laugh; he has such an adorable personality — a personality that always surprises me what he says and how he says it. It’s hilarious.
ME: So Magic, do you feel worthy of that nicer place?
HIM: Yea, why not? What’s the big deal?
Haha. Maybe you had to be there? Hear the way he said it. Hilarious.
I notice I have notes here that say (In my journal) – this has to do with feeling inferior around people with money – -more perceived success – like I’m not on their level – that they’re somehow better than me.
And then, right after that I got the beautiful message that I speak about above about helping me work on self worth and that I am royalty and about living in luxury. YES! HELL YES! I say yes to this lifestyle!