January 12, 2013
I bumped into an old college friend today. Amazing how the Universe orchestrates. I haven’t spoken to this guy in 4, maybe 5 years. Incredible how in this class of just 6 people – there he was and there I was. Amazing.
We started talking and it was just like old times. It was a fun chat and we’re very much the same on how we talk and joke around / same sense of humor. It was fun to experience that since I had so much strain with my ex (from England, cultural differences, etc) and to be able to have someone who just “gets” you.
In any event, this connected to what I have been writing about with the other guys I recently met – my Basketball friends…. and that is this, I feel more accepted with people who are “mainstream.”
I don’t know where this leaves me with my spiritual teaching. Maybe these people are just the ones I am to be friends with, have light conversations with, etc…
But it seems like amongst spiritual people, where you would think that I would feel that I belonged, many times I do not.
I had shared this in another post, but there always seems to be a self consciousness, “let me be sensitive” and “let me watch what I say” around spiritual people – whereas with mainstream people, I keep it real… say what’s on my mind… have a sort of sarcastic or just tell it like it is attitude.
Maybe more cut-throat… again, just more real.
So what’s the issue here? How does this all fit in? I don’t know…
I find myself confused again. No need to figure it out anyway…. I am just watching the chain of events. Mainstream (personality wise) is more me. Spiritual me is just plain old fake. Too concerned about hurting someone’s feelings, not being “spiritual” enough, etc.
For example… and this one makes me laugh cause it just happened a day or two ago.
I posted on my Facebook page this….
Guys, don’t ever, ever, ever tell a girl, “SMILE, You’re Beautiful!” – it’s one of the most annoying things that u could ever say! #dating
This guy on my fan page wrote this….
Why is it annoying? Maybe it’s only annoying because the women who are bothered by it have a certain belief about what it means. Personally, I feel the one who is triggered is the one who needs to do the “looking.”
Are you fucking kidding me?
I wanted to say, you smartass. It’s annoying cause it’s lame. I guess we know what pick up line YOU use.
But I didn’t write anything. Instead I decided to not reply to anyone on my Facebook anymore. Who gives a shit. They all annoy me anyway. And this is where my “bad attitude” comes back into play again. This fucking Facebook, you have assholes from all walks of life commenting on what you write. Taking it the wrong way, giving you smart ass comments. I don’t want to hear any of it.
And fucking spiritual people… and yes, I’m guilty of this as well… what’s with his stupid ass comment. Spiritual people are always trying to correct people and their speech. Shut the fuck up. It’s a stupid pick up line. Girls hate it when you say that. And it’s just plain old obnoxious. You don’t go around telling people their beautiful or handsome and that they should smile more. A guy would look at you like, “what the fuck?” Learn how to give a compliment. You know, like a good one – not a recycled loser statement.
So obviously that has some charge for me. There’s some charge there as well, cause I’m not “allowed” to reply back to him. It’s “unprofessional” and “not spiritual of me” — if I had replied what I was thinking, it would give him even more judgment about how I’m not spiritual and about how I was triggered and how I have anger to deal with.
Okay, maybe yes. But again, this is the typical spiritual response. High and mighty and always teaching. Always trying to show you’re better than someone, always trying to teach them.
I’m stopping that shit. Funny cause I’ve been saying that a lot to people – my mainstream friends – when I go into teach them something about spirituality or they ask me something about their love life… I make a joke about “being off the clock”
We laugh and that’s the end of it.
If I had said that response to a mainstream person we’d have a conversation or whatever… and that would be the end of it. Instead, I always feel this weird energy from spiritual people.
Your relationship with a spiritual person is never black and white like it is with a mainstream person. If they are pissed at you, they tell you (or something like that) – you can have yelling fights, whatever. But you know – you can feel the energy – and it’s solid. Things are okay or good between the two of you… but with a spiritual person, they are always FEELING and THINKING and clearing out shit and healing, so their energy is always changing towards themselves and other people. I fucking hate it. There’s always this weird energy feeling. YUCK. More on this to come, I’m sure….
PS: got 555 two times today, as well as 111 two times as well… and 888
111 – Monitor your thoughts carefully, and be sure to only think about what you want, not what you don’t want. The sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means that the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts…ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling or monitoring your thoughts.
555 — Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being “positive” or “negative” since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continuing seeing and feeling yourself to be at peace.
888 — A phase of your life is about to end, and this is a sign to give you forewarning to prepare. This number sequence may mean you are winding up an emotional career or relationship phase. It also means there is light at the end of the tunnel. In addition it means, The crops are ripe. Don’t wait to pick and enjoy them. In other words, don’t procrastinate in making your move or enjoying the fruits of your labor.